Bleeding Tears

I don’t cry tears

I bleed them

Cough them out of lungs

Spew them from sockets

where eyes once rested

Let them rain over flesh

Poisoning

Crawling

back into the depths of shallow veins

They choke the liver

Squeeze screaming kidneys

Writhing

They drench bones

in their joined monstrosities

I squirm, imprisoned in skin

Howling through open pores

And the metallic tasting tears

lurk  behind and between teeth

Venture up the screeching  jaw

Stretch the muscles so they break

So they cry too

They shake a tormented brain

Racking its skull

and it thunders so heavily against its casket

Splitting ear drums

so they curl

withdrawing into insanity

And I’m digging

Clawing into a chest cavity

to pull its beating – no, its pounding –  content from within

to stop the tears from spreading

Pulling open the gaping hole, I stare

into the pit of  madness

The intestines have found a new place to exist

in the acidity of the stomach

The tears put them there too

and I want to tear them from that place as well

It doesn’t belong

and it feels about as good

as the organ laying in my hand

The Compromise

Hey there So my boyfriend, Nathan Stewart (Killateral) and I wrote a poem together. He calls it a killaboration, hahaha. So anyways, we did a video of it together, you can check that out here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkVp1-wDCu8&feature=youtu.be

Check out the rest of his channel if you like dubstep or any of that electronic type music stuff. He’s amazing. The link to his channel is also in the side bar of this site listed under Blogroll as Killateral.

So I’m just gunna post the poem here as well. Everything written in green is the parts that Nathan wrote and everything in black is the parts that I wrote. And again, I just wanna thank all my followers and viewers SO MUCH for all the support I’ve been getting Kay, see ya guys.

The Compromise 

Breathless

Like water on ice, we’re moving

Forget the sacrifice

Because we’re better

We’re better than their cheap tests

And we’re living

Putting blood infused words to rest

sunset to sunrise

will be my demise

from lies to cries

silent suicidal sighs

besides,

I truly despise people’s tries

to advise and compromise

I’m seeing

And if seeing is believing then what are we conceiving?

Like a shadow

Fused to the wall

Get ready to fall

Drop it

Receive their calls

so put your words to rest

I feel so blessed

still it seems so stressed

I’m only alive wearing this life vest

with thoughts to molest

of some fucked up conquest

and after you have confessed

lest we remember

the ember after protests

Whether we win or lose

With the blue drugs

And the booze

It’s more got to do

With the remainder

The remainder of our last favour

hide behind my gaze

and hear one single praise

the soul never strays

yet never really stays

with memories of early days

Days that rained

And what did we do?

We followed you

Without a clue

Of which direction

Which direction we were going

Is it snowing?

Or it that just the sound

Of their insulated background?

It’s all just behind

and from some other kind

but wait,

I need to rewind

the metaphoric tape

to escape the future

outlined by fate

and so back to the grind

no suture, no shape

what will we find

what adventures await

Honour and integrity

Shrouded by conspiracy

Lost in the normality

And everything that shouldn’t be

Freeze

Knock knock Nathan

with a blank inhuman stare

your weird, but who’s there

All the people

With their hypocrisies

And their “evolutionary” “democracies”

They say we’ve come so far from the past

But why do so few ask

If it was better then

With the clean air

And the would’ve been?

Now everyone’s smoking grass

To escape this overgrowing reality

and so “A’hoy matey”

said the pirate to his crew

a sad, sad connection

the only one he ever knew

he stares out at the big open blue

that same sea I see with you

on those quiet eery nights

my short weary sights

fixed on the perception

of stars shining so bright

hanging above our sea of blue

until we find whats really true

Talk of a new planet

Could it really be that different?

Or will we slowly diminish

Every place that we inhibit?

All seems so helpless

But I look into your eyes

One beautiful truth

Amongst so many lies

And I find some strength inside

Who feels imprisoned

can’t tell heaven from hell

they wish they had listened

but it’s just as well

finally escaped and then fell

what was left? Just a shell

Of emptiness

Residing in you?

Tranquilize the misery

Forbade by their feuds