Chasing the Dragon

I lay where we lay

I sit where we sat

I wrap my arms around myself

And squeeze

Try to remember

Try to forget

And I scream

Throw myself like I can’t feel

Pain

Into the wall and it

Hurts

But not like this

Not like you

You’re the only thing I do feel

When I don’t feel nothing at all

Cuz it’s all a waste

Like the explanations

There are none and yet

I’ve been chasing a

Dragon

That shares your name

Because there’s no time

Like the first time

And I was never really sane

Haunting Me

I remember that night

Sitting in the dark

Thinking, you could stop this pain

Just by not being where you are 

Knowing you were knowing

Just what you were doing to me

And knowing you weren’t stopping

Thinking, how sick this love must be

And she was nothing to you

But you were my whole world

Yet she was the one you’d choose that night

And while you explored the body of that girl

I was drowning in what it meant to be loving you

Praying the very thing happening wouldn’t be

Knowing all the while it was

Because I know how you loved that scene

And all I ever did for you and all my love

It meant nothing once you’d made your choice

Yet despite everything you’d done to me that night

I was still relieved to hear your voice

When you came begging for another chance

Crawling on your knees

I loved you so I set my heart on forgiveness

And that’s when you started haunting me

The Devil On My Shoulder

I’m the fog along the coast

at sunrise

I’m the darkness that creeps

behind your blue skies

I’m your anchor

embedded in stone

I’m a whisper

I’m sand in your bones

And you cannot escape me, my dear

But, heavens, we know you’ve tried

I’ve seen the way my voice

brings puddles to your pretty blue eyes

I feel the pain when you do

And I hear you when you curse me

I watch you laying on the floor

And darling, I assure it does hurt me

But I’m not here to force it away

I’m not here to feed her lies

I can only show you

the way to sever the ties

that bind you to your misery

And, darling, it’s not me

But if you wish to cease my existence

then you, also, must cease to be

And don’t you wish it all away?

To never shed your heartache again?

Don’t listen to that other voice

for she is not a friend

Don’t think I don’t see you clinging to her though

The way you search our mind so frantically for her presence

But she is the one who lies to you

Yet, it’s on me that you seek vengeance

When she promises it’ll all be okay

with no evidence to assure you

Don’t you want to strangle her

for prolonging the misery? I do

I just want you to be dead like me

I just want you to give up

I want you to stop fighting me

because that’s what’s best for us

For you I mean, most importantly, my dear

Please take us away from the agony

Please take us away from the fear

Don’t you see that the battle you’ve been fighting

You’ve been fighting against the wrong side

I swear that if you join me

you can’t regret not being alive

and if you follow her she’ll drag you on

She’ll drag you across the floor

What kind of angel can she really be

if that’s all she uses her wings for?

So lay her down and come with me

Release the shadows cast by trees

You are all you’ll ever be

A depressant to the air you breathe

Fellow Sinner

I may be no saint

I sin just as you do

My soul is neglected

My body is abused

But I am a keeper

Although I keep just one thing

For that, they call me unlucky

A terrible thing

Dress it up or dress it down

Do whatever it is you please

I know a diamond when I see one

And I know what it is you call ivory

Now if you can catch the sinner

The sinner of said soul

I may reveal a simple truth to you

I may let a certain story unfold

But if you hide behind the very thing

That allows your mind to see

I’m afraid that pain may start with you

That pain may continue with me

So tap into the depths of your fears my friend

Allow the darkness to rain true

For without the storm, the clouds can’t break

And as they swallow me

They’ll be carried by you

The First And Last War

They silenced us

They silenced us with their eyes

Judging

Drew a discriminative line

They degraded us

They degraded us with their laughter

And then they cornered us

Tried to define the things we were after

They used images

Lyrics

And they called us the evil ones

Crazy and hopeless

They gave other reasons for suns

And they shot the one we loved

They shot Him through our minds

Through His chest

And while we cried for Him

They tried to give us reasons to forget

Why must we be broken?

Is it there

In our blood?

The sins of our mothers

The lie of just one?

Madness or heartlessness

We all must live here

May it be endeared

Or may it be in fear

Something About Someone Somewhere

She’s a collection

Of flesh, blood and bones

Assembled in the form of the human body

Garnished in an assortment of rare clothes

Oh, she’s a creature of some sort

That much cannot be denied

For she’s certainly breathing

And I see the light in her eyes

But something is strange

Within the depths of her being

And on the surface it shines

Unashamed, always seeing

Alien

I swear she must be

For the alien in her

Has greeted the alien in me

What a splendid reunion

What a horrific scene

For when the planet we exist on

Meets the end of all that’s green

I’ll chortle with my alien

And she’ll be laughing at me