Stop.

I laugh

Hear the sound and move

Instinctively

To my pocket

Flip open my phone

To share the cause

Look for your name

And stop.

First Love

Breathe it in

Your scent

I’ll miss it

Your arms wrapped around me

Those hugs

Those kisses

I’m sure I’ll move on

But will I ever get over

Those places you held me

Like I was your clover

And then there was your smile

The way it met your eyes

Your lips on my neck

Like a calming lullaby

And the warmth all inside me

When you whispered goodnight

And the way our loved blinded me

Shut out the light

Will I ever see the ocean

Without seeing us there?

Will the future I imagine

Ever lack the little girl

With blue eyes and blond hair?

I swore I’d love you forever

And maybe I will

But babey, I can’t catch you

I can’t keep you still

This may be the last time I say this

So I’ll say it again

You’re the love of my life

You are my heaven

Death Row

How my heart aches

to hear the words you once said

without the trace of a lie

the one I recall being fed

to me and my suspicions

few months ago

Now again I lay waiting

like our love is on death row

And I want to call to you

beg you to say the words

put an end to this suffering

tell me I’m being absurd

But somewhere I know

deep in my soul

the words have run dry

and our story is old

You no longer want me

I’ve been here before

If there’s any lesson you’ve taught me

it’s how to close the door

Because you’ve shown me that my love

is worth basically nothing

but it’s the best I have to give

and so I am nothing