I tried to make it all okay
I tried to laugh
I tried to play
You showed me things I’d never seen before
You held me
You kissed me
You made me feel adored
But every time I opened my eyes
And your face, it wasn’t his
And every time you touched me
With unfamiliar hands
I cried inside for him
And although your voice
It said sweet things
And reminded me I could still half smile
It wasn’t the voice
My heart was breaking for all the while
I reached within the depths of my core
I tried to pull him out of me
My lungs were shaking with every breath
As you kissed me
As you touched me
You traced the line down my neck
I squeezed my eyes tight shut
Praying that I could let you have me
But in my heart
I knew it wouldn’t be enough
To erase the bitter sweet memories of him
Playing over and over in my head
There he was still smiling at me
Making all the promises he’d said
His arms were wrapped around my waist
Kissing my lips
He held on tight
I thought he’d never let me go
A truth that now lay shattered
One I’d always know
Still, he was all I needed
But the him in me was lost
Tripping over strange, new pieces
I could have died despite the costs
