Without You

Choking on love

Living on loneliness

Dizzy

I hardly sleep

These nights are

Moonless

And I can’t do this

With you so far away from me

Cuz’ I’m addicted to your voice

And your arms around my waist

And I can’t stop thinking about

The way you always taste

These cravings get hot

And heavy

When I’m alone in my own bed

I hate opening my eyes every morning

To another day I get to spend

Living by the hour

Trying to keep strong

When really the only thing I want

Is you back in my arms

Losing Him

I tried to make it all okay

I tried to laugh

I tried to play

You showed me things I’d never seen before

You held me

You kissed me

You made me feel adored

But every time I opened my eyes

And your face, it wasn’t his

And every time you touched me

With unfamiliar hands

I cried inside for him

And although your voice

It said sweet things

And reminded me I could still half smile

It wasn’t the voice

My heart was breaking for all the while

I reached within the depths of my core

I tried to pull him out of me

My lungs were shaking with every breath

As you kissed me

As you touched me

You traced the line down my neck

I squeezed my eyes tight shut

Praying that I could let you have me

But in my heart

I knew it wouldn’t be enough

To erase the bitter sweet memories of him

Playing over and over in my head

There he was still smiling at me

Making all the promises he’d said

His arms were wrapped around my waist

Kissing my lips

He held on tight

I thought he’d never let me go

A truth that now lay shattered

One I’d always know

Still, he was all I needed

But the him in me was lost

Tripping over strange, new pieces

I could have died despite the costs