Howdy

Hey guys

I super apologize for my lack of any posts for the past forever. School has been kicking my butt! I’m also working on a novel and it’s coming along but has been sucking most of my creativity dry. I’ll be working on some new poems soon though so bare with me! I hope you’ll continue to read

- KD DeFehr

Chill

We maintain the shell

With water

Food

And oxygen

From it we borrow

Vocal chords

Sight

Smell

Muscle and

Movement

Expressions

Tears

A place to put our

Thoughts

But where do we go?

What is the “me” in this body?

If I’m just cells

And a cluster of brain waves

The drug, hormones

Receptors

Whatever

Following some

Order

Making me who I am

Then why am I so

Detached

All the time?

My soul is in there

I feel it hiding

Often in the general location

Of my left kidney

Something untouched

Not object

Nor matter

Energy

It just sort of

Chills

And I wonder if your

Soul

Is still here

Finally free from the

Shell

You discarded

I’ll still miss your

Movements

And expressions

Sick Again

The whole world lit you up

Like the angel you are

Like the tears on my cheeks

As I look up at the stars

And remember your hands

Moving across piano keys

But it was never the song

That was capturing me

I’m not alone

When I think back to those days

I still feel it all

Like the warmth of your embrace

And the memory

Keeps me from getting cold

It’s not real but it’s the only

Love that I hold

Drag Me Under

Ceasing is the land of dead

I crawled behind your eyes instead

Falling was the cure I sought

Loving was the demon’s drought

On and on it goes again

Forgive, forget; it never ends

Hold my hand and drag me under

A whistle blows, I abandon slumber

These kisses, they keep killing me

However only existing in dreams

Your voice came from so far away

I only hope it’s there it stays

Your memory is a catastrophe

To any future there is for me

I hide my head and await it to pass

I hate myself for the questions I ask

Just Like That

Just like that

You put it out

The flame that’d burned so strong

You sentenced it

Dead and gone

Like it never existed

Not an ash for evidence and yet

I know

It left its scorch marks on me

Although I keep them where no one sees

Like I don’t feel the burn

Like I don’t remember how the blistering heat

Once warmed my soul

And made me say things like “forever” and “always”

Now you find it all so

Replaceable

Someone new to fill the space between your arms

The other side of the bed

The hole in your heart

Is there even one?

I could never know

Because you treat me like a stranger

Although it wasn’t so long ago

That you said things like “forever” and “always”

And we were together

Always

Quick question!

Hey guys

So I tried to work on my new pages and am very frustrated…I made them all pretty with pictures and laid everything out how I wanted but when I pressed “publish” everything jumbled together and made a big mess. The format totally changed! I kept trying but this happened every time. Anyone know whatsup with this or how to change it?

- KD

New Stuff!

Hey everyone

I hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season! As you may have noticed, I’m making a few new additions to the site in hopes of sparking some new interest! And also to make it a bit more uplifting…my poetry tends to get a little gloomy from time to time so I’m adding some cheer! For example, my blog now snows which is pretty cool if I do say so myself. But I’m also actually adding some new pages so I hope, once they’re up and running, you’ll all check em out and enjoy

Also, I’m pretty excited because I finally bucked up some courage and submitted some of my poems to Chicken Soup for the Soul. I’m praying that maybe, just maaaybe they’ll like one of them enough to publish in their next book! That would be fantastic. I’d probably actually pee myself a little if that happened. So wish me luck!

Another thing I’m most happy about is the novel I’m currently working on. I must say, it is going rather well and I’m really excited! There’s something about these characters…I just love em! They’re practically writing themselves!

My poetry on the other hand has been suffering a little these days…maybe it’s just me but I’m feeling it’s not as good as it was when I was less pleased with my life. I’ll have to find a way to work around my good mood but in the meantime I’ll keep trying my best to keep the posts coming!

Happy holidays!

- KD DeFehr

True Loves

Lightning storms and Baileys

Fires and Christmas trees

Bubble baths and candles

An early autumn breeze

Picket fences and log cabins

The smell of dad’s cologne

Mom’s chocolate pudding

The place that I call home

The first snowfall of the season

Walking in the rain

Dancing like an idiot

Loving without shame

Country music on the radio

Harry Potter in my favorite chair

My sister’s home made cookies

Our first dog Cole, big as a bear

Camping in the summer

Sledding in the snow

And when we used to go to plays

Not that we didn’t love our TV shows

Road trips were always the craziest

When we were Alberta bound

Like the time we lost the windshield

And the bronco totally broke down

I remember the first time I flew a kite

On the field out by my old school

Watching my fabric eagle soaring through the air

Holding tightly to that spool

And I remember when my big brother

Assembled my first bike

Pink streamers and training wheels

It was love at first site

And when my daddy built our play house

With nothing but his own two hands

The coolest and cutest play house ever

And to me he was twice the man

And the day that my cat Felix died

My sister sat with me in my room

And before boys started breaking my heart

Mom would read me Nancy Drew

And dad would stand there in the doorway

Every single night

He always blew a kiss to me

And I’d whisper I love you and goodnight

Hockey games and barbecues

Softball and ice cream

These things are the true loves of my life

And they’re never gunna leave me

The Future Beholds

Hey guys. So. I just thought I’d write and let you know that I might not be writing for a while. My main inspiration just broke up with me so…haha. Again. Yeah, that sucks. But! With new challenges comes new opportunity and I’m gunna take this new challenge for all it’s worth. Everything happens for a reason, right? I love him more than life itself so it’s gunna take a while to really get my mojo back, haha, but I’m starting to feel alright about this already. The future brings good things to those who ask for it after all and I believe I’m more than deserving of good things. Just hang in here with me while I work my way through this…whatever this is.

I love you all.

- KD DeFehr

Hurt

Hey guys

So I am working on a poem, I just haven’t been able to get the end right for a while now and I want it to be perfect before I post it. So in the meantime I thought I’d just share the work of and celebrate one of my favorite artists of all time.

This is Hurt by Johnny Cash. It was originally done by Nine Inch Nails so props to them for the lyrics. But in my humble, personal opinion I think it was Johnny who really added life, deep meaning and a certain understanding to the song that touched so many people where they felt it most. Pain is something we all share as humans and he really nailed it with this one.

R.I.P. Johnny