The Six Stages of Grief

I put my letters in a basket

High on a shelf

I sent your head and a fork

Along with the delph

I tied peonies and lilies

Along the backyard fence

I dug a hole for three hours

Dumped a bucket of salt water in

Thence I lay on the lawn

And I watched it sink down

Took an hour for lunch

Returned to the mound

And I filled it all in

And then I stood in the sun

There I planted a honeylocust

And watched as it begun

Bleeding Tears

I don’t cry tears

I bleed them

Cough them out of lungs

Spew them from sockets

where eyes once rested

Let them rain over flesh

Poisoning

Crawling

back into the depths of shallow veins

They choke the liver

Squeeze screaming kidneys

Writhing

They drench bones

in their joined monstrosities

I squirm, imprisoned in skin

Howling through open pores

And the metallic tasting tears

lurk  behind and between teeth

Venture up the screeching  jaw

Stretch the muscles so they break

So they cry too

They shake a tormented brain

Racking its skull

and it thunders so heavily against its casket

Splitting ear drums

so they curl

withdrawing into insanity

And I’m digging

Clawing into a chest cavity

to pull its beating – no, its pounding –  content from within

to stop the tears from spreading

Pulling open the gaping hole, I stare

into the pit of  madness

The intestines have found a new place to exist

in the acidity of the stomach

The tears put them there too

and I want to tear them from that place as well

It doesn’t belong

and it feels about as good

as the organ laying in my hand

The Truth and Other Lies

Saintly

Am I?

Couldn’t be

Riding on the back

Of self sympathy

Deadly

Are you?

Shouldn’t be

Floating on the air waves

Of devils of me

The Catalyst

He sets fire

To my fields

My fields

Of flowers

Mine

For the giving

He made it

His

For the taking

And I fucking hate him for it

I’d wish he’d burn

If it would return life

To my flowers

But you can’t

Reverse

A chemical

Reaction

Not in any way

That matters

The First And Last War

They silenced us

They silenced us with their eyes

Judging

Drew a discriminative line

They degraded us

They degraded us with their laughter

And then they cornered us

Tried to define the things we were after

They used images

Lyrics

And they called us the evil ones

Crazy and hopeless

They gave other reasons for suns

And they shot the one we loved

They shot Him through our minds

Through His chest

And while we cried for Him

They tried to give us reasons to forget

Why must we be broken?

Is it there

In our blood?

The sins of our mothers

The lie of just one?

Madness or heartlessness

We all must live here

May it be endeared

Or may it be in fear

Two in the Same

Expose your guts

For love has taken me

Feed your intestines

As hatred has forsaken me

How is it that two oposing beings

Live within the same creature?

If she hasn’t learned yet

Allow me to teach her

How one encircles

While the other surrounds

One hunts

The other drowns

It’s sickening and it’s twisted

It’s comforting in its warmth

The lighting of this truth

Is the scorching of this torch

Lucifer’s Kiss

Eyes flaking

Falling apart

Skin shaking

Torn by lines of fault

Her breath scattered through clean breezes of air

Her laughter lingered

Before crumbling there

And she surrendered

Fingers stretched towards the heavens

But her heart fell to the floor

Mastered what couldn’t be forgiven

Nothing mattered now

Not the blood on the walls

Nothing could be forgotten now

And that’s when she saw

Death

Angry

Never scared

She picked her heart up

Tore open her chest

Slammed it in

Only the devil knows the rest

But one thing is for certain

It’s the cancer of hatred

And the body she slaughtered

Was nothing to the soul that was taken

Down From Above

Swallowing hate

Disguising disgust

Doing my best

Not to mistrust

You tore me open

Revealed old wounds

And now you stand there and ask me

How I’ve come so unglued

I keep my gut in a locker

My mind between teeth

Anxiously awaiting

The devil’s unsheathe

Carry me, carry me

Feel my heart beat

Now leave me to die

Rather, leave me to sleep