Waiting

You leave tomorrow

and you’re inside packing

your paintings

your clothes

necessities

And I’m thinking how

I should be one of those things

needed

one of those things you bring

everywhere

because life wouldn’t be complete

without it by your side

But I’m not

Instead I’m watching

and I’m waiting

and I’m looking out at the

ocean

and praying

for us

and for everything that should be

could be

and for everything that isn’t

to one day be

I’m looking at this island

and I’m trying to make it move

but it’s still

and the water moves around it

I’m like that island

stuck

steady

ready as the waves crash against it

and those waves are you

always moving

always changing

smoothing the edges of the island

where trees and grass grow

but always in their place

just watching

waiting

breathing

and hoping

that whoever made those

mountains

rising in the distance

will protect our circle

like the mountains protect

this place

from storms

spiraling

inhaling

storms

foreseen in the distance

but what happens

when an unexpected earthquake

erupts from below

cracking my

island

forcing your

waves

upward

and drowning

the grass

the trees

everything

that’s been growing there?

You’re inside

packing  your things

things you own

things you need

things that are yours

forever maybe

and I’m wishing

I was one of them

But then I remember

that whoever made those

mountains

also made the

earthquake

that forced them to rise

and I think maybe

just maybe

everything will be okay

That one day our

earthquake

could build a force

that’ll protect us too

Beautiful Blogger

A huge thanks to the Gray Poet for nominating me for the Beautiful Blogger Award I was so excited when I saw that he’d nominated me as he is one of my all time favorite poets! It’s awesome when someone your a fan of is a fan of you, hahaha. Check out his site at http://graypoet.wordpress.com/. You will not be disappointed.

These are my nominees:

http://intotheindigo.wordpress.com/

http://poetryofamadman.wordpress.com/

http://underthetoadstool.wordpress.com/

http://mysmallstillvoice.wordpress.com/

http://girlwiththepen1118.wordpress.com/

 

Versatile Blogger

Thanks sooooo much to Marina Sofia who has nominated me for the Versatile Blogger Award It’s hugely complimenting and has made me extremely happy. Sometimes all it takes to start the day off good is checking your notifications and seeing that someone has been appreciating your work So thank you Marina! Check out her blog at http://findingtimetowrite.wordpress.com/.

So I don’t normally do the questions and stuff but I’m feeling like I may as well for once so here it goes. Just 7 and a half things about me…completely random.

1) I’m completely head over heels unbelievably in love with a boy named Nathan Stewart

1.5) When I was little I had an imaginary boyfriend named Nate…who was a pirate

2) I have a turtle named Michelangelo.

3) I love olives

4) I’m addicted to eating

5) I graduate from high school in 2 days…

6) I’m obsessed with Harry Potter

7) I talk to myself. A lot.

Alright. People I’m nominating…

http://normamartiri.wordpress.com/

http://rlbk75.wordpress.com/

http://feelthinksay.wordpress.com/

http://bareyournakedtruth.wordpress.com/

http://lettersfromthewasteland.com/

Without You

Choking on love

Living on loneliness

Dizzy

I hardly sleep

These nights are

Moonless

And I can’t do this

With you so far away from me

Cuz’ I’m addicted to your voice

And your arms around my waist

And I can’t stop thinking about

The way you always taste

These cravings get hot

And heavy

When I’m alone in my own bed

I hate opening my eyes every morning

To another day I get to spend

Living by the hour

Trying to keep strong

When really the only thing I want

Is you back in my arms

Dad

Someday I’ll look toward the stars

and ask you how you are

I’ll tell you all about my day

no matter where you are

And then I’ll say, “I love you dad”

and send a kiss to you

Just like always

Just like when

you stand in the doorway of my room

Because I’ll always be your little girl

no matter where I go

And you’ll always be the best man in my life

It just happens to be so

So often do I think of you

when the Leafs are on T.V.

When I see the playhouse that you built

just for Kristy and me

I think of you when I hear Johnny Cash

and every time that there’s a storm

Because I remember the night I heard the thunder roll in

with my dad out on the porch

I like to think I have your smile

Because it’s the best I’ve ever seen

You told me to always keep a sense of humor in this world

So I always keep a piece of you with me

My dad and I

Photo taken by Kristy DeFehr

Photo edited at Picmonkey.com

What is happening…?

Hey guys,

So I dunno if this is happening to anyone else but something extremely annoying and weird keeps happening when I make a post and it’s ruining my poetry and is making me super mad. You may or may not have noticed the random words in posts that get underlined, highlighted and linked to some “Text Enhance” site. I’ve tried editing my posts when this happens, highlighting the word and selecting “unlink” but this does not fix the problem and I don’t know what else to try…This only just started happening now. Random words in all of my posts, even the really old ones, are getting linked to that stupid site…

So my question for you wonderful people is…do you know how to fix it? Or have any ideas of how one might fix it? I’m getting frustrated Waahh. It’s not fair. I’m a pretty anti-media and advertising person and I don’t like that this site is taking advantage and linking itself to my poetry I feel like my art is being invaded by superficial stupidness.

Anyways, a million times thanks to anyone who can let me know how to solve this predicament.

And a million times thanks to all of you anyway for all the support, follows, views, comments, ect. I can’t express enough how awesome you people are.

Best wishes,

KD DeFehr

Fresh Hell

What fresh hell

spreading its infectious

tumors

into organs without

a name

What fresh hell

squeezing the holder

drilling into

sweetness

exposing all the

veins

This isn’t like the

other times

times of

understanding

and forgiveness

This is like the

knife

that carved out that

willingness

Now he’s hiding like

a child

hands over head

And his own children

are silently crying

surrendering to

their beds

the ones that

she

made

that now

they

have to lay in

The Catalyst

He sets fire

To my fields

My fields

Of flowers

Mine

For the giving

He made it

His

For the taking

And I fucking hate him for it

I’d wish he’d burn

If it would return life

To my flowers

But you can’t

Reverse

A chemical

Reaction

Not in any way

That matters

The Compromise

Hey there So my boyfriend, Nathan Stewart (Killateral) and I wrote a poem together. He calls it a killaboration, hahaha. So anyways, we did a video of it together, you can check that out here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkVp1-wDCu8&feature=youtu.be

Check out the rest of his channel if you like dubstep or any of that electronic type music stuff. He’s amazing. The link to his channel is also in the side bar of this site listed under Blogroll as Killateral.

So I’m just gunna post the poem here as well. Everything written in green is the parts that Nathan wrote and everything in black is the parts that I wrote. And again, I just wanna thank all my followers and viewers SO MUCH for all the support I’ve been getting Kay, see ya guys.

The Compromise 

Breathless

Like water on ice, we’re moving

Forget the sacrifice

Because we’re better

We’re better than their cheap tests

And we’re living

Putting blood infused words to rest

sunset to sunrise

will be my demise

from lies to cries

silent suicidal sighs

besides,

I truly despise people’s tries

to advise and compromise

I’m seeing

And if seeing is believing then what are we conceiving?

Like a shadow

Fused to the wall

Get ready to fall

Drop it

Receive their calls

so put your words to rest

I feel so blessed

still it seems so stressed

I’m only alive wearing this life vest

with thoughts to molest

of some fucked up conquest

and after you have confessed

lest we remember

the ember after protests

Whether we win or lose

With the blue drugs

And the booze

It’s more got to do

With the remainder

The remainder of our last favour

hide behind my gaze

and hear one single praise

the soul never strays

yet never really stays

with memories of early days

Days that rained

And what did we do?

We followed you

Without a clue

Of which direction

Which direction we were going

Is it snowing?

Or it that just the sound

Of their insulated background?

It’s all just behind

and from some other kind

but wait,

I need to rewind

the metaphoric tape

to escape the future

outlined by fate

and so back to the grind

no suture, no shape

what will we find

what adventures await

Honour and integrity

Shrouded by conspiracy

Lost in the normality

And everything that shouldn’t be

Freeze

Knock knock Nathan

with a blank inhuman stare

your weird, but who’s there

All the people

With their hypocrisies

And their “evolutionary” “democracies”

They say we’ve come so far from the past

But why do so few ask

If it was better then

With the clean air

And the would’ve been?

Now everyone’s smoking grass

To escape this overgrowing reality

and so “A’hoy matey”

said the pirate to his crew

a sad, sad connection

the only one he ever knew

he stares out at the big open blue

that same sea I see with you

on those quiet eery nights

my short weary sights

fixed on the perception

of stars shining so bright

hanging above our sea of blue

until we find whats really true

Talk of a new planet

Could it really be that different?

Or will we slowly diminish

Every place that we inhibit?

All seems so helpless

But I look into your eyes

One beautiful truth

Amongst so many lies

And I find some strength inside

Who feels imprisoned

can’t tell heaven from hell

they wish they had listened

but it’s just as well

finally escaped and then fell

what was left? Just a shell

Of emptiness

Residing in you?

Tranquilize the misery

Forbade by their feuds 

Versatile Blogger

I am extremely happy to say that I have been nominated for the Versatile Blogger Award by Alex. So I give a huge thank you to Alex for this wonderful compliment  Definitely made my day. Check out Alex’s site at http://worldlywinds.com/. It is a really beautiful blog.

These are my nominees:

http://maggiemaeijustsaythis.wordpress.com/

http://professionsforpeace.com/

http://secretlifeofamanhattancallgirl.wordpress.com/

http://clownponders.wordpress.com/

http://graypoet.wordpress.com/

http://guitaristindia.com/

http://mesayah.wordpress.com/

http://lackingunderstanding.com/

http://lyricsandchocolate.wordpress.com/

http://boomiebol.wordpress.com/