Love and Lies

I actually wrote this as a song but I can’t really sing or play any instruments too well…so naturally it’s a poem now.

Love and Lies

-KD DeFehr

Well I

I cried

About eighteen hundred times

And you

Fell through

About once in your life

To the blackest part of you

I sacrificed

A heart full of love and lies

Well I

Went down

About fourteen miles from hell

And you

Went to

The very bottom of that bottle

Not thinking about tomorrow

And all the talk of dreams you sentimentalized

Brought me to my demise

Now I’m feeling all shook up

And overused

Cuz the best part of me

I thought was you

Hanging in the gap

Is our night in the city

When I dressed to impress

And you said I was pretty

Now I

I die

About eighteen thousand times

And scattered on the edge

Of memories I’ve paralysed

I can still see your eyes

The Six Stages of Grief

I put my letters in a basket

High on a shelf

I sent your head and a fork

Along with the delph

I tied peonies and lilies

Along the backyard fence

I dug a hole for three hours

Dumped a bucket of salt water in

Thence I lay on the lawn

And I watched it sink down

Took an hour for lunch

Returned to the mound

And I filled it all in

And then I stood in the sun

There I planted a honeylocust

And watched as it begun

Howdy

Hey guys

I super apologize for my lack of any posts for the past forever. School has been kicking my butt! I’m also working on a novel and it’s coming along but has been sucking most of my creativity dry. I’ll be working on some new poems soon though so bare with me! I hope you’ll continue to read

- KD DeFehr

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The problem with picking up broken pieces is that sometimes they make you bleed.

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Things tend to lean before they fall.

- KD DeFehr

Chasing the Dragon

I lay where we lay

I sit where we sat

I wrap my arms around myself

And squeeze

Try to remember

Try to forget

And I scream

Throw myself like I can’t feel

Pain

Into the wall and it

Hurts

But not like this

Not like you

You’re the only thing I do feel

When I don’t feel nothing at all

Cuz it’s all a waste

Like the explanations

There are none and yet

I’ve been chasing a

Dragon

That shares your name

Because there’s no time

Like the first time

And I was never really sane

Chill

We maintain the shell

With water

Food

And oxygen

From it we borrow

Vocal chords

Sight

Smell

Muscle and

Movement

Expressions

Tears

A place to put our

Thoughts

But where do we go?

What is the “me” in this body?

If I’m just cells

And a cluster of brain waves

The drug, hormones

Receptors

Whatever

Following some

Order

Making me who I am

Then why am I so

Detached

All the time?

My soul is in there

I feel it hiding

Often in the general location

Of my left kidney

Something untouched

Not object

Nor matter

Energy

It just sort of

Chills

And I wonder if your

Soul

Is still here

Finally free from the

Shell

You discarded

I’ll still miss your

Movements

And expressions